This is so sick, upset, helpless, frustration, anger. I am affected emotionally, but I am not ready to let these feelings control me. I am letting them go today.

I made a decision today, I no longer care what has happened around me, whatever the situation is, I want to feel peace. From now on, ir’s me, myself and Joe only. No more emotional stuff today. I can’t be stuck in all these emotional crap that long, there are better things to do, there is a higher purpose to fulfill. There is so much I can achieve.

Even when things are not resolve, I don’t give a darn, it’s time to move on. Spinning in the same place does not serve me or anyone. Whoever is left behind, it’s their responsibility to catch up. I don’t see a reason to stop or slow down for anyone. Call me selfish, bastard, unloving, call me what you want, I don’t care. What you think of me is none of my business. I have a life to live, and now, no more holding back.

There are so much to accomplish, there is no time to slow down for anyone, no time to be sucked in by craps. I got to move on for myself. Stuck in the same position doesn’t allow me to grow. I don’t want to indulge in those crappy feeling, and gradually becoming a victim. I control my feelings, thoughts and actions. Those who want to indulge in their crappy shit, so be it, but leave me out.

For all my good friends, I will support you in whichever way I can, you have my promise. I am willing to be opened to you, to share with you and you with me. Don’t worry, I did not reverse back to my old self, I just moved on.