After going one big round, a 10km run, and realized it’s me. All these craps that’s happening around me is created by me. I would not have gone through those pain if I’ve know this earlier.

It’s me who created all those crappy stuff, even craps from others. Do I have to be responsible for them? You bet.

Being who I am is not important. More importantly, I have to be aware of how others see me, and change myself according to their liking. Then who am I?

Maybe I’m just a selfish bastard, maybe I’m just not loving enough.

Maybe I should just carry all that craps and make it mine, since I am responsible for it. I should just take all the action to change, since it’s me who created them.

It got nothing to do with people around me, it’s me. Their craps is mine to carry. I have to change so that they won’t be having their craps anymore.

In that case, do I have to be responsible for everyone around me? I guess not.