A decision was made. I actually decided on a decision weeks ago. I felt relieved after making that decision, moving on in my life, and not to be bothered by the issue again.
However, a new thought surfaced last night. An incident I saw from a third party view triggered this thought. I am reconsidering this decision. Now I have to go through that feeling of making this decision again. Oh…I drag that feeling. Nevertheless, I will feel what I need to feel, acknowledge that feeling in me.
Also a friend said something to me. I don’t really take heart to what he said, as unlike him, he is worried of other people’s perception, I’m not. But what he said did make some sense from his perspective, though I felt it was very surface. I believe it was because he did not understand what I’m going through when he said that. I do not blame him as he doesn’t have that kind of experience.
Life is full of decisions. These decisions are check points of life journey. Making each one of them brings you to a place you do not know. It’s the unknown that brings insecure to man and excitement to life.
